7/18/24: this is my first ever journal on my website, i will figure out the format later but for right now i am actually making an asmr typing and gum chewing fall vibes video!!! yyayayyyyy. my channel has been doing alright but i hope i can reach 1000 subscribers by the end of july?? i dont know if that is a big ask but i have wanted to make a youtube channel for years an asmr channel specifically, since i have been listening to it since i was probably like 8. im pretty insecure about it though and i really hope no one finds it. there are also a lot of creeps on the internet so it will probably take me a while to be more comfortable on camera, because i have gotten a few creepy emails. i want my fanbase to be more girls and less creepy men. anyways, moving on. i also go camping on the 24th so i will probably upload some pictures afterto this website when i do a recap of the trip. im going with my lovely boyfriend, niklas whom i also built a website for, but his is blue! i really like this whole website instead of social media and it makes me feel a lot better about how my summer is going. i had a lot of fomo and would compare my summer to other people's but honestly i just dont think this summer is a hot girl summer, like there are hot girl summers and then theres this one, which is more like a chill, mature, but also swimming in a pool like a little sticky 5 year old. which is what i like, i just think maybe ive protected my peace too much! anyways, im going to find something else to type about, my arms are getting tired of typing out my feelings because they go so fast when im journaling. ok bye!!!